Semua orang ada musuh kan..?

Okey macam nilah hidup kan? Saya ada ‘musuh’ sekarang. Tapi bukan lah musuh kuat pun. Kami tak pernah bergaduh atau bertikam lidah pun. Cuma, pandang – pandang, jelling – jelling, masam muka je. Mungkin saya saja yang menanggap dia sebagai musuh, dan dia tak rasa apa – apa pun. Mungkin lah.

Tapi tak rasanya. Orang kata, kalau kita pancarkan pancaran negatif kat orang, orang tu pun akan rasa negetif kat kita. Betul bukan? Eh, dia yang mula dulu. Bukan Atirah! Saya selalu jugak bertembung dengan dia. Entah berapa kali. Tak suka lah. Kami bukannya berteguran pun. Senyum pun tak. Haritu teringin nak senyum tapi…saya ego.

Dalam banyak – banyak kali kami bertembung tu, ada sekali, saya bertembung dengan dia, dan masa tu tengah galas gitar. Tetiba, DIA SENYUM PULAK KAN! Apa kes senyum? Tapi saya ni baik. Saya senyum balik. Eleh, dalam hati saya dan judge pelik dah.

Saya: Eleh, nak cakap boleh main gitar ar tu..loser giler…

Okey tak pe lah kan. Esok pagi jumpa dia kat pagar asrama, saya tengok dia, eh pandai pulak dia toleh ke lain. Kenapa tak senyum macam kelmarin? Nak tunggu ada gitar baru nak senyum? Ishh..saya rasa, saya yang berfikiran negatif sekarang ni. Betul ke dia nampak saya duk kat pagar. Entah – entah dia tak pakai contact lens.
Hari lain pulak, nampak dia lagi. Dia naik scooter pulak. Saya bising dalam hati.

Saya: Haish asal asyik jumpa dia ni hah? Sekarang kau nak kata kau bawak scooter pulak la???!!?

Okey, mungkin bukan niat dia nak buat semua benda tu. Rasanya Atirah kot yang tafsir bukan – bukan. Kita cakap benda bukan – bukan kat dia, sebab dia ‘musuh’ kita. Atirah tak perlu cerita, kenapa dia boleh jadi ‘musuh’ untuk Tirah.

Yang saya sedar, hati kita selalu saja ber-negatif pada orang yang kita tak suka. Asal rasa dia tu tak baik saja, hati ada saja nak judge dia benda – benda tak elok. Mungkin Atirah patut buang title ‘musuh’ tu kot. Bila buang, mungkin hati akan mula jugde benda yang baik kat dia. Tapi susah wo, susah.



p/s: tengah dengar lagu Waiting for The End – LP, “this is not the end, this is not the beginning..blablabla” saya exam minggu ni =)

Wise sayings

Situation 1 


Keith: Why Muslim women have to wear hijab? They don’t look nicer. They are prettier without it.
Daud: (Thinks for a few seconds) Watch this. 

(He takes out two candies and unwrap one of it. He throws down the unwrapped candy and the wrapped candy on the ground that is covered with sands. )
Then he asks the man,
Daud: Which would you rather eat?
Keith: (He bent down and takes the wrapped candy) Of cause this one. This is clean!
Daud: That is similar with our women wise man. They are not supposed to be like the “unwrapped candies”.
Keith: *how beautiful the answer is, it is so true yet relevant*
*Daud and Keith here don't represent anybody, I just 'invented' them.*

Situation 2

British man: Why can’t we shake hands with the women?
Sheikh: Can you shake hands with Queen Elizabeth?
British: Of cause not! It is not for everybody.
Sheikh: Same with the women, they are our queens. They do not shake hand with strange men (ajnabi)

Why don't cover your head pretty ladies? Are you not thinking something when you read these? Take times then. These are the stories I heard tonight, in Linguistics Class! I’m so delightful hearing these!! Don’t you feel the same people???

British accent anyone?

Don’t you love British accent? Oh my gosh, do ask me, I love it so much! It is so sexy. Justin Bieber said that. I just watched Prince of Persia. The actor is actually an American, but he spoke with British accent in that movie. I was wondering “Isn’t he American? How did he get this accent?”. At first, I thought this accent is exclusively for the British. Seriously, I didn’t know that, there are even British accent’s trainers out there that are willing to teach us talking like a British.

So, this actor might be taking classes for learning British accent with specific teacher. I don’t know, I just guess. Actually, there are a lot of people who did this. For instance, Justin Bieber. He learns this accent because he is meeting his fans in UK. A lot of American actors and actresses learn it for their movies and plays. I don’t know why they need it in certain movies.

I like British accent actually. Seriously. I want to have it. One of my lecturers has this. It is so amazing and inspiring. I love to listen to her speaking and I will mimic it later. I am secretly learning it haha. It is hard. I don’t know. Maybe I don’t have the talent to do this. I sometimes mimic Harry Potter’s accents, and I sound like overdoing it. It’s hard. I really want it so bad. It just not my day. I need to have more practices.

You can look up for videos in the youtube for British accent examples. I did dig some. The videos could be helpful.

From what I know, British accent has some differences in pronunciation.

• Pronounce “U” in ‘stupid’ and in ‘duty’ with the ‘ew’ sound. It is pronounced ‘stewpid’ not ‘stoopid’, got that alright.
• Pronounce the T in "duty" as ‘tee’, not as the American, they pronounced ‘doody’ so that duty is pronounced ‘dewty’ in British accent.
• Sometimes Ts aren't pronounced at all, especially in words with two Ts grouped together. So ‘battle’ might be pronounced ‘ba-ill’. This sound like you are lazy to speak.
• British accent drops ‘r’ sound. For example “car”. And many other, I don’t really know now.

Yeah, if you want to know more, go google it up! I can only tell you these, not more, I am still learning.

p/s: I don't like Jake Gyllenhaal before this, but when he speaks with British accent, it makes him sexy. And I apparently like him. My bad. 

Malas nak keluar

Banyak kawan – kawan ajak saya keluar jalan – jalan sekitar KL. Mula – mula memang rasa macam nak. Bila fikir balik, susahnya kalau saya keluar. Kalau orang yang rapat dengan saya, dia orang tahulah, saya ni bukan jenis yang keluar sangat. Maksudnya saya kurang keluar bersiar – siar. Sangat malas, benda tu sangat menyusahkan. Kalau pasal benda macam ni, keluarga sayalah yang sangat memahami.

Saya nampak dengan jelas, yang orang tua saya, tak risau bila dia orang dapat tahu saya samabung belajar kat kawasan dekat KL. Dia orang tahu, anak dia orang bukan jenis merayap. Setengah ibubapa sangat risau bila anak dia belajar jauh – jauh. Yelah, anak dia orang suka merayap. Bahaya jugak kadang – kadang. Saya jenis yang tak buat mak bapak saya risau =)

Bila orang dah ajak, susah sangat nak kata “tak mahu” pada ajakan tersebut? Bila kata “takpa lah, nanti fikir dulu” orang anggap itu dah janji. Atirah nak jaga hati sebenarnya. Ini bukan nak elak. Ini memang tak mahu. Tak mahu sebab malas. Malas nak bersiap, malas nak jalan, malas nak tunggu, malas nak keluarkan duit, malas nak solat merata- rata, semua malas. Kalau duduk bilik saja sepanjang hari, hanya keluar turun makan je takda masalah pun bagi saya. Orang lain tak tahulah, saya boleh je hidup macam tu.

Faktor yang buat saya tak suka keluar bersiar:

• Malas nak bersiap, pilih baju apa nak pakai, pakai dengan tudung mana, kasut apa, stoking, jam tangan, bawak beg tangan, bedak compact, lip gloss, minyak wangi, sanitizer semua tu. (because I’m a girl)
• Terpaksa solat merata tempat, dengan orang yang ramai, anak kawan tu jerit menangis segala bagai, telekung surau busuk kotor mereput.
• Duit lagi. Belanja macam buka paip air.
• Kena guna kenderaan awam. Beratur beli tiket, masalah orang jual tiket tu tak ada duit kecil lah, tak ada syiling lah, benci betul. Kalau saya ada kereta nanti, saya harap saya takkan keluar selalu. Tol lagi nanti. 
• Terjumpa budak sekampus atau sekelas, memang lah tak tahu nak buat apa. Kalau jumpa budak perempuan sekelas, mungkin saya tegur, jumpa budak lelaki sekelas, tak tahu nak tegur ke tak. Sangat malu nak mula.
• Fikir tentang banyaknya masa weekend saya sudah terbuang akibat bersiar – siar. Kalau duk kat bilik, boleh main games, buka internet, bancuh ovaltine crunchy, tengok movie,buat kerja, tidur petang, main badminton, pergi library usha budak international, semuanya menyeronokkan dan menghilangkan tekanan.

Sebenarnya, keseronokkan saya mungkin bukan keseronokkan bagi anda. Saya hidup begini. Sangat sederhana. Saya suka macam ni. Lebih tenang. Lebih baik. Lebih kurang keburukan, insya Allah. Kalau saya keluar, solat saya mungkin tak sempurna, saya tergesa – gesa, saya tak betul – betul bersih. Perempuan ni kena teliti sikit. Baju kotor tak, stoking kotor tak, telekung satu hal jugak. Kena touch – up bedak balik, pakai tudung dengan kemas, mata kena segar, semua benda lah. Renyah weh. Lebih baik tak payah keluar.

P/S: Saya bukan timid. Saya hanya malas.

The lost of Adab

Their behaviours nowadays are getting worse. Don’t tell me that you never noticed? They are Muslims but they lived like none. They need to be advised. How to do it? Everybody will get angry if one tries to correct them. It never is easy to preach. It needs patience. But who to be blame first and foremost? Is it the parents? Or the education system? Or us? My answer is everybody - every one of us, if you ask me. Including myself.

But what I learned in my class last week, it is the education system to be blame. Why is that? He said the national philosophy of education does not match the aims of education. It has the aims but the efforts do not seem to be working. They don’t really put it to make it happen. I would like to say the fault goes to the philosophy, not the educational system.

The efforts planning of our government in the education’s philosophy is to produce holistic individuals. I can see that schools around KL have female students that do not wear hijab but they are Muslims. This should not be happen if our government wants to develop holistic individuals. We must tell them to cover their aurah. The school principle should educate their students about what is wrong and what is right in Islam. It is very basic for the Muslims to know about their aurah. Is it not right?

It will lead to the rise of the unqualified leader when these things happened right in the school. There’s a lot more to tell here okay. They dumped babies, they had sex before the marriage, they forgot their religion, they drink alcohol, and they took drugs. The next generation will ruin our country, nauzubillah. Gosh this is scary! We need a leader that is willing to protect our country from any misery.

When humans make mistakes worse and worst, it is actually the sign of the last day, right? I bet everybody knows this very undeniable fact. Aren’t you scared? Of cause dude! So can we delay the day by helping those people to behave well? Can you tell me the answer? Does anybody know? I need to know this, seriously.

 Taken from FB

Dasar manusia lemah!

Dasar manusia cetek iman memang selalu tewas dek godaan syaitan nirrojim
Sumpah gua cakap lu gua antara manusia yang selalu ditewaskan
Tolong daku tolong imanku tolong jangan biar diriku menjadi kejam
Dulu pernah bertaubat, tapi kenapa masih ada hati nak mendekati dosa kelmarin
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Malam ni saya tak patut online langsung. Niat awal nak main game jer, tapi dah nak tengok FB sangat sampai dah melalut – lalut benda yang jumpa tu. Tak guna. Tak pasal saja buat dosa. Internet memang jahat. Google paling jahat. Tahu la kerja dia just keluarkan apa saja keyword yang kita tulis tu, tapi tak perlu la tunjuk benda yang tak elok. Internet jahat!!! Eh internet tu hanya lah satu sistem rangkaian global, apa yang jahat sebenarnya?

Diri sendiri la jahat kan? Betul ke tidak? Semua jahat! Elektrik jahat, broadband jahat, laptop jahat, internet jahat, google jahat, youtube pun! Atirah, tolonglah, jangan buat lagi. Malu pada Tuhan tak sekarang? Cerita kat blog tak malu pulak? Kenapa cerita kat blog ni? Nak bagitahu apa? Nak bagitahu yang saya dah buat dosa, sekarang rasa sangat takut jika saya mati esok pagi saya mati dengan dosa ini. Haish.. Lain kali tolong istiqamah lebih! Atirah memang teruk!

Mesej sebenar: Ustaz kata, kalau kita solat tapi masih buat benda berdosa, itu maknanya solat kita tak berkualiti. Atirah tak perlu salahkan benda lain. It’s you. It’s YOU!