Saturday, October 22, 2011

Tak perlulah marah

Okey saya ada cerita. Tetiba saya rasa geram gila dengan seorang senior dari sekolah lama saya. Semester lepas saya senyum kat dia, dia tak senyum balik. Lepas tu cuti semester lima bulan ada rumah terbuka teacher, saya jumpa dia kat sana. Tapi kat rumah teacher okey saja perangai dia. Saya senyum dia senyum balik. Saya salam dengan dia, kami boleh je bual baik – baik.

Saya pun tukar pendangan saya tentang dia sejak terserempak dengan dia di rumah techer haritu. Saya ingat dia dah berubah. Harini ternampak dia depan kafe makan, saya pun senyum, dan saya nampak dia lihat mata saya. Tapi dia LOOKED AWAY, tak balas senyum pun cik oi. Ingatkan dia ni seorang yang jenis balas senyum.

Sumpah sombong. Macam lah tak pernah kenal. Kita pernah sembang salam bagai. Gosh, irritating betul. Tahulah dia budak **** pun. Tak perlu lah bangga sangat. Memang saya emo habis. Saya ni punya lah nak buat baik kat dia, senyum tapi dia buat tak tahu saja. Kesian kan saya?

Bila balik bilik, saya pun fikir benda ni sorang – sorang. Saya cerita kat kawan – kawan betapa marahnya saya. Tapi bila saya fikir balik…perlu ke nak marah? Kenapa nak marah sangat? Suka hati dialah nak senyum balik ke tak? Kau senyum tanda sedekah bukan? Perlu ke orang tu balas balik?

Okey, sekarang saya rasa macam saya tak patut marah kat dia. Senyum ke tak nak senyum ke kau punya pasal. Tapi ego ni kan? Lepas ni malas lah nak senyum kat dia. Buang tenaga je.

Aaaahh Atirah memang teruk. Tak perlu marah – marah rasanya. Kita buat hal kita sudah. Teringat saya dengan pesanan kawan saya jurusan Bahasa Arab, dia pesan, biarlah orang buat tak elok kat kita, selagi mampu, kita buat baik saja dengan dia, kita tak rugi pun. Saya harap saya senyum dengan ikhlas.

“If the world was ours, we would have it all. But the life we live isn’t so simplistic, you just don’t get what you want” - Halfway There by Big Time Rush

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Lady of destruction

I know this one lady named Edel
She came here and read until she get swell
She always claimed that she’s an unknown
And keep refer herself as best known
Unfortunately, I know her all too well

This lady I’m talking about named Edel
Who always being perfect before I could tell
Back then she was so nice
We were all fooled by her spice
Luckily, we’re awake with the words of non-fuel

Before this tricky lady walk into my life
I thought she’s the best for the one who needed a wife
Now she’s making us extinct
Wonder why people still couldn’t think
She’s actually a fake doll with a tongue of a penknife

p/s: This is a Limerick poem. I wrote this myself. Limericks are commonly known as funny poems. But I just don't know how to make it funnier. Personally, I think it is funny =)

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Tryout

Taken from my window

You're not helping...


I think I want him back
Bring him back to us
Why are you hiding him from us?

We are his family
He is not yours alone
I know you knew he’s not yours alone

Is there any guilty in the clouds?
Have we ever done this to you
When he was with us?

At least for God’s sake
Let us say Salaam to him
That’s our right to him

It broke our hearts to lose him
If you don't want us to come
Don't make us alienated


Bear in mind about this part
You can’t tear us apart
Unless when God says so.

God is the one that has the right
HE warned that this'll count as sin
Alas, they made you think you win.

Bissmillah hirrahmanirahim
22. Then, is it to be expected of you, if you were put in authority, that you will do mischief in the land, and break ties of kith and kin?
23. Such men whom Allah has cursed for He has made them deaf and blinded their sight.
From Surah Muhammad, verse 22-23

p/s: This is for me and for all readers. Let's think/ponder about the message in the Surah =)

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Why you gotta be so mean?

The mother cat kept licking the kittens, hoping it would revive them. According to the family that adopted the stray cat, on the morning of the 11th when they heard the cat’s tragic cries, they rushed downstairs to discover this stray cat’s four kittens abused to death, and even placed in front of the mother cat. The kittens’ bodies were covered with bullet holes, with blood all over. One of the kittens had its neck tied with a rope and elongated, its chest cut open, heart exposed, while the other three kittens’ heads were stepped on.
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Isn't this sad to you? I AM sad. Why do you have to be so cruel? Go get a life! Don't you have anything better to do? Gosh, I hate these cruel people.  You guys are not human! You're mean-pathetic-loser, bunch of morons.

My God... Does this make them feel any better? Do you feel like you're truly a human being when you stomped them around?  This is so sad.

Man is the cruelest animal” by Friedrich Nietzsche (German classical Scholar, Philosopher and Critic of culture)

All you are is mean and a liar and pathetic and alone in life, and mean, and mean, and mean, and mean (Taylor Swift - Mean)

p/s: I hope Allah will guide you to the right path.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Cerita tentang ikhlas kita

Ini cerita hari Sabtu yang lepas.

Kelas halaqah kami hari Sabtu, pukul 10 pagi. Sabtu kan sepatutnya cuti? Mesti la ada yang nak balik rumah atau nak keluar jalan – jalan kan. Walaupun saya tak balik rumah hujung – hujung minggu, saya pun ada rasa malas juga nak pergi kelas pagi – pagi bila orang lain semua cuti. Malas nak serika baju, rasa rugi pakai baju kurung hanya untuk pergi satu kelas tu je!

Kalau tak datang kelas nanti markah kena potong pulak. Pergi kelas halaqah hari tu, sister tu pesan kat kami semua tentang keikhlasan datang ke kelas.

Ikhlas ni memang susah nak capai. Dalam hati kita ni sapa yang tahu kita ni ikhlas? Allah saja yang boleh tahu keikhlasan kita. Malaikat di kiri kanan kita pun tak boleh tahu dan tak dapat nak tahu. Terkejut tak dengan statement ni? Ok, Tirah pun baru je tahu fasal ni.


Ikhlas ni susah nak nampak, ibarat mencari semut hitam yang meniti atas batu hitam pada malam yang gelap. Berapa ramai yang niat pergi ke kelas ikhlas kerana Allah? Berapa ramai yang niat belajar tinggi – tinggi ikhlas kerana Allah? Atau berapa ramai yang kahwin dengan seseorang niat ikhlas kerana Allah?


Banyak orang buat sesuatu benda hanya untuk keuntungan diri. Susah nak kira berapa ramai yang betul – betul ikhlas kerana Allah. Diaorang boleh lah kata yang diaorang ikhlas, tapi dalam hati Allah saja yang boleh tentukan. Mulut kata ikhlas, hati belum tentu lagi.

Saya bukan nak cakap yang saya ni lebih baik, kat sini. Saya pun masih mencari ‘ikhlas’ ni sebenarnya. Susah sangat. Atirah ni teruk. Terus terang saya cakap, saya belajar sebab saya nak kerja yang gaji banyak nanti, saya bangun Subuh awal pagi sebab malu kat roommate kalau bangun lambat, saya pergi kelas sebab nak kehadiran penuh, saya pergi talk sebab attendance co-curriculum ada markah dan saya macam – macam lagi lah.

Kawan saya cakap, kalau kita buat sesuatu niat kerana Allah, kita akan dapat pahala. Lagi satu kalau benda tu dapat bagi keuntungan pada kita, kita akan dapat dua benda extra, iaitu pahala dan keuntungan/kebaikan/keberkatan (dan yang sewaktu denganya) dengan mutlak.Lepas ni kenalah berubah. Semua orang kena cuba cari ikhlas ni.

Pergi kelas kat lab sebab situ boleh online
Dan saya sangat terasa bila sister kelas halaqah tu sebut hal ni. Saya rasa teruk sangat. Serius. Saya rasa macam tak pernah niat buat sesuatu ikhlas kerana Allah. Dalam niat puasa, niat solat ada je sebut lil lahi ta’ala tapi..…entah. Susah nak cerita. Tak rasa sedih ke?