Your Boss is AWESOME

It is stressful to have a leader upstairs who just ask you to do things randomly and don’t even care how it is done. All they know is, just ask someone to do it and get it done no matter how.

Feel familiar? Yes, bosses like these exist.

My advice is, be nice to them. Tell your opinion nicely and be courteous as ever! Sweet talk. And show a ‘nice guy’ face or smile when you explain it to them. Use a good tone. Share why you think you can’t do it and try not to lie or anything.

If they still don’t change their mind, then you just have to breathe and stop thinking, just do it. Thinking a lot will lead you to health issues. We don’t want that to happen. You’re too young and you should be healthy.

Remember this. YOUR JOB WILL NEVER END. It keeps on coming day by day. You can choose to press that pause button and resume whenever you are ready. You cannot run away forever, you can only hold it on for a moment and eventually you have to face it (to settle it and move on).

Then, when you look back at all of this, all you can remember is the memories or the lesson learned in it. You totally forgot about how you coped with the tension.

Try to remember one of the nights you were struggling on writing your thesis back in the University days? How’d you do it? Did you stay up all night or skipped meals? Did you lock yourself in your room?

See. You don’t remember it. You only know that you get it done nicely on time. Hahahaha. I know I’m right =)

Same goes with this one, the boss issues. You will get through it. Just like how you do it in university.

Don’t be afraid to express how you feel to your boss. If things doesn’t work out plus you are nice and don’t want to make enemies with them, then… just do it as you are told. It is going to be okay. If you help them, God will help you.

Thanks for reading. Cheer up.

You can't control everything

So we decided to have our dinner back in the hotel. We were planning to eat with some food I bought at Broast. The chicken looks tasty and juicy and yummy, every single time. I always wanted to eat something else apart from what the hotel served us. 

After dinner, all of us took our own ways and go back to each other’s room. I laid back and looked at my phone, checking my messages and I wanted to take my bath before I sleep. I cried when I found out that the time of the month has finally come. And I remembered how hard I prayed to God to postpone my period this month so I can fully attach myself to my ibadah here in Mekah. But His plans are better than mine and He knows what I do not know.  I continue crying, I felt so loss. I felt so demotivated, and I felt so angry too. 

It is a little bit disappointing when you came from afar to do your rarest ibadah and then your body is not holy enough for you to do anything in the most Holiest Mosque in the world. I cried myself to sleep. My grandma noticed it, she stayed with me in the same room. So she asked me about it in the morning. I told her with tears in my eyes. I felt a terrible sense of loss, you might never understand this feeling. I am so terribly at loss. The saddest part is I don’t know when I can come here again. 
 
 

from Google image

So we ate some bread to fill our tummy, and I took my grandma to the mosque so she can perform her fajr prayer there with my dad waiting for her arrival at Bin Dawood shop. With that, I left her with my father, and I walked my way back to the hotel all alone. I cried walking alone. I didn’t care at all if the people are looking. I know they were looking at me, I just didn’t look back because I know I do not want to socialize and to make contact with anyone at that moment. So I let them look.   

Until today, sadness always come knocking my heart every time my brain remembers this.

Be a vampire and stay young

Let me be honest. I know, it has been a while. As I was surfing the net finding stuff about how to keep your skin young, I found so many tips. But I guess some of it, is kinda hard to do, for me (because I hella lazy). So I sorted out a few which I think is the easiest. And I put it in my words and in the way I understand it. I’m not a good person to talk about skin, I’m not a dermatologist though.

But here’s the easiest way:

1. Massage

“Massaging your face daily will help boost the production of collagen, give skin a more plump appearance and help stimulate the lymph glands to promote clear skin,” says Nichola Joss, Sanctuary Spa Skincare Expert. I’ve did this for quite a lot of time. It is good for cracked and dried skin. Use olive oil. Not too much, just apply it thinly and massage for several minutes. Then rinse. Don’t leave it overnight, it can get very uncomfortable especially when the weather is hot. And your hair keep sticking of your face, you don’t want that.

 2. Tomato

Tomato is cheap and easy. Carrots and tomatoes contain betacarotene. This chemical stimulates skin cell growth and builds collagen. Betacarotene is also a good anti-aging food because it blocks antioxidants. I tried putting tomato mask on my face for 25 mins. It is awesome! You can feel the different in the next morning. I am not lying. Simply squash a slice of tomato (you don’t need 1 whole tomato) and spread it on your skin. They said tomato is good for anti-aging. Also it can make your skin fairer. (I know this from the research I made)

 3. Drink plenty of water

Adults should drink at least two litres of water per day. Boosting your fluids intake ensures that water is needed for skin cell formation. This is easier said than done. I got to say, I really hate frequent peeing. But water is too important. So drink! It is so easy and almost free. Good bye dried lips.

4. Get beauty sleep.

Everybody loves sleeping. It makes us happy. Get at least 6-7 hours of sleep every night can help you to feel and look a lot younger than your real age. This is easy! Go to bed early.

5. Lotion in bed

Apply lotion or olive oil or moisturizers just before bed. Because they said there will be better absorption of these products at night. So don’t be lazy. I use Vaseline petroleum jelly, it is good enough. Focus on your hands and neck and feet and the knees.

They are easy as pie, easy as meggie! Everyone wants to be beautiful inside and out. Make it as a routine. I will. I am so addicted to look younger these days. Remember, age is just a number. Pen off for now.

Reference: here and here 

I’m a cat lover, and I just killed one

Today, as I about to leave for work, I .. I.. I hit a cat to death. I feel like crap. To make it worse, it was my own cat, the cat I pet every day. He was 5 months old. I curse myself all day. I’m a cat lover, and I just ran over a cat to death. How am I supposed to feel? I feel devastated!

I was already late, I chased all of the cats away, but they would not listen. I chased them away twice. I even tricked them by pouring the food in their plate so they would stay put and eat. I hopped into the car, and reversed. Then I heard a scream. I looked at the sliding window in front of me, looking at the reflection. I saw one body, his legs was sticking up. I jumped out of my car and saw his head was crushed and his eye was out. I screamed my lungs out, gasped and cried. I killed him. There’s nothing I can do, he’s dead. Allah!

My brother and my mum came out after they heard my scream. Man I screamed loud. I saw one neighbour came out too. I couldn’t control myself. And I thought, no I can’t go to work like this. I don’t want to drive anymore. I lifted my cat and brushed his fur saying I’m sorry repeatedly and called out his name. No please..

I just wanted to get this out of my chest. Now I feel all the guilt and burden on my shoulders. I used to blame people who hit cats on the road easily. I used to say, “How on earth can they hit a cat? Were they blind? Were they driving too fast? Can’t they avoid it?” I used to say all those words.

You see.. I’m not blind. I will do anything to take it back. I was driving so slow, I was not speeding at all, I was only trying to reverse the car. But it happened. I think this is karma. And it hit me in the face. Because sometimes those people didn’t hit the cat on purpose. They would never run over the cat if they saw it.

You can say all the good things to me now, it won’t help me to feel better. I just want to cry the blood out of my eyes. I love him so much. I want to see him grow up. It was his destiny, I know that. Mum keeps telling me the same thing. But I killed him! I took his life away! I was the one driving the car. God, I can’t forgive myself.

What am I going to tell my manager? My boss and all? If I tell them my story, I think they’ll laugh. They’ll say “it just a cat!”

Mentally depressed

It’s the first entry in 2015. I’m so sorry blog. I neglected you. Woah, my blog is so dusty like the snow pouring down in Beijing. Nothing you could see from the ground you stand, but the dust! I’m still sane thank you very much.

Lately, I’ve been so depressed. So painful. So sad. W H Y ? 
1. I’m jobless
2. I left the campus, my 2nd home *graduate
3. My cat died, too soon, he’s 6 months old. *I cried 4 days and 4 nights **still crying alone when I miss him (Pipong)

Please give me a job here in Kedah. I am sending the resume to PPD soon, I hope they will return me a call, insya Allah. I want to say sorry to those I’ve hurt all years since 2009. Please forgive me. I was naïve and emotional. It was kind of my fault. I’ve said sorry, I’ve done my part, so please, please do yours.

My azam for 2015: I want to read as many as I can.